Life Lately

Life is a road and everything you come across is just another patch that you're gonna leave behind as you move forward. At times the road gets bumpy but the hack is to keep going till you hit a smooth patch. But during that ride till the smooth patch when you go through the pot holes, the lessons are meant to be learnt. Nothing lasts forever and there's no harder truth than this. 

I've been going through my sort of rough patch lately. Yes, I have received my reality check in love. That pain is dominant over all other good things happening around me. I am going to start a new career with SBI in my professional life. It was a dream for me to work with SBI and I should be really enjoying this phase to the most but unfortunately I'm not. There's something, that's killing me inside. I had some special feelings for someone over a very long period and it was always one sided it seems. I don't know why it hurts the most now a days while I always knew her answer all these while. There's some sort of weird insecurity and jealousy I've encountered in my traits. I get very anxious when she posts something over social media with her friends. I have that weird insecurity hitting me when I see her smiling with her friends. I feel pity for myself. Sometimes I fail to tolerate that she has people around her to make her happy which I clearly don't have. It hits different. It doesn't bother me that she's happy, I'm upset about my inability to move on. I also have understood that to live peacefully I need to let go of her thoughts from my mind but it seems to be the most difficult assignment. Anyways I've to adopt to that or I don't have any options but to let her go